Let’s be
honest friends, we all struggle with wanting what we don’t have. We aren’t always satisfied with what the Lord has
blessed us with. In line with yesterday’s blog post on being discontent, today's post is about how the
Lord is also showing me how dissatisfied and I have been in the answers he has given me for certain prayers. In reading the Resolution for Women, the Lord is showing me that
he has already provided everything that I need, and if it is not in my life,
there is something that he is trying to teach me, or a foundational principal
that he is trying to firm up. I had an
experience with this very subject, this week, that opened my eyes more than I could have
ever imagined.
Like
yesterday’s post where I talked about the fact that I had been being discontent
in the circumstances of where I was in my life, and had spent the last few months dating hoping that
“God would bless me," I found that the Lord was allowing me to become discouraged and even depressed from my discontentment. Although I was praying for major changes in my life and my prayers were very specific, they
weren’t lining up with the actions I was taking in my life. I was
praying for an amazing Godly man, the
one who would know how to lead me as a woman, the
one that had a desire to pray for and with me, the one who
wanted to grow in the Lord together , and would protect my heart as he pointed
me to the Lord and not pulled me to himself. I was also praying for the Lord to
protect me from relationships that I was not ready for and to send a godly
friend into my life. However despite all
the time I had spent praying for these specific things, I allowed men into my life over the last few
months that were not godly men. It
doesn’t mean that they were bad people, most of them were even Christians, but
they weren’t actively seeking a relationship with Jesus and growing to be men
after God’s own heart.
And then it
happened…. I was just sure that God was answering my prayer and I knew exactly
which one it was he had answered when, a Godly man walked into my life, we connected, we had so much in common, we both
loved the Lord and wanted to glorify him, but I still wasn’t completely content.. I had been praying for a Godly friend to
encourage me, and yet when someone walked into my life and did that very thing
I wanted more. I wanted validation that
he thought I was someone special, I wanted a first date, but sometimes those things just don’t work out
the way we plan. He seemed to be
perusing me and I was so happy, at least I thought, until circumstances
changed, and our first date got
cancelled, I was devastated, I
questioned what was wrong with me, what I had done wrong, why he didn’t like
me, what had changed. I let Satan run wild in my head.
But yet,
this godly man never quit encouraging me, and in fact when I was able to step
back and see the big picture I realized how much he was protecting me from
rushing into something we both weren’t sure was God’s will. Over the next few days our conversations
turned from ourselves and the thoughts of dating, to the Lord and serving him,
bettering ourselves, becoming a more godly man and godly woman. We talked for
hours about church, and ministry opportunities and the reality of the
gospel. I realized the other night that
God had answered my prayer, He had sent me a godly friend, someone who would
spur me toward the cross. That would encourage me in sharing what Jesus had
done for me, someone who made me realize waiting for the relationship that the Lord
has for me is the only way to make things work, and who knows, maybe one day he and I can revisit those dating converstations. :)
I realized
God was using these conversations to soften my heart to bring me back to a
place where I would fully surrender all parts of my life and my will to him. The desire I have seen in my life change for the
word and prayer, has amazed me, the Lord flashed something in front of my eyes
that I thought I wanted and turned it into something I desperately needed. Who are we to question what God is doing. Sometimes he doesn’t allow us to have things
in our lives that we want, because he is working on strengthening up the
foundation of our spiritual lives, so, that when he blesses us with things or
people in our lives, we are ready to handle them in a way that is fully
glorifying only to Him.
I realize
God knows best, he has plans for us, that is a promise you can stand on. When you think God is not answering your
prayer, take a step back and refocus. Is
he providing for the need in another
way. Is he telling you to wait so he can
work on you first? Is he telling you no
flat out because it’s something that is not good or even harmful for you.
I suggest
writing out your prayers in bullet points and putting them somewhere you can
see them, so that you can pray fervently for your desires and can see when God
does answer…, GOD WILL ANSWER in his time and in his will. Rest easy on that promise sweet friend. Knowing that God is answering your prayers
will help you become more fully content in him
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